I’m Not Who I Was

I struggle with wanting to please people as an achiever and not giving a crap as a challenger. It’s a strange place to be.

One thing I’m learning, as I walk on this journey of mental, physical, and spiritual health, is that I am exactly who I need to be in this moment to become who I’m becoming. I know I am a lot of things: quirky, a caffeine connoisseur, and a comfort snob to name a few. Yet, I know who I am not: a woman without boundaries, mean spirited, or a quitter.

Knowing who I am not helps me realize who I am, and I’m proud of myself. It takes courage to look within the internal dark places of yourself. It takes showing up daily for the real work. It takes time. Mostly, it takes wanting to love yourself more than you did yesterday and giving yourself grace for your shortcomings. I may not be the woman that I long to be, but I’m so grateful of the woman I am today.